{"id":699,"date":"2014-01-16T13:18:37","date_gmt":"2014-01-16T18:18:37","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.benignchaos.com\/?p=699"},"modified":"2017-02-13T14:26:05","modified_gmt":"2017-02-13T19:26:05","slug":"the-first-step","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.benignchaos.com\/?p=699","title":{"rendered":"The First Step"},"content":{"rendered":"

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I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122ve wanted to own my own business for years. It\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s been a constant dream of mine, as constant as my dream of true love (which I did eventually find in my husband).<\/p>\n

So I step on the path, saying to myself, \u00e2\u20ac\u0153This time I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122m going to do it. This time I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122m going to work and create my own business. I have an idea. I have a capable competent business partner. I can do it!\u00e2\u20ac\u009d<\/p>\n

And then I sit at my desk, and I crumble. I crumble into tiny bits of defeated dust that blow away in the wind. My own negativity destroys me.<\/p>\n

The old wisdom is to not listen to the naysayers. Surround yourself by people who support your creativity and dreams, and ignore those who would clip your wings with their words. But what if the most relentless and negative of all the naysayers is actually your own voice in your own head? What if you are your own enemy? How do you quiet the voice of fear, doubt and disbelief\u00e2\u20ac\u00a6 especially when it\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s so loud that its soundless screams drown out any positive thought?<\/p>\n

I don\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t know the answer to this riddle. Right now, I choose to continue to work towards my dreams with the cacophony of fearful and doubtful words as my companion. The work is slow as I am regularly derailed by the fear, but then I pull myself off the floor, dust myself off, and get back to work.<\/p>\n

To believe in the worth of your work \u00e2\u20ac\u201c to believe in the worth of yourself \u00e2\u20ac\u201c is a constant battle for many people. And that\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s why I write these blog entries. It is in finding our worth and sharing ourselves that this world will blossom. The battle is worth fighting for when you win, your victory will touch everyone around you, bringing light and hope to others still deep in the journey.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122ve wanted to own my own business for years. It\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s been a constant dream of mine, as constant as my dream of true love (which I did eventually find in my husband). So I step on the path, saying to myself, \u00e2\u20ac\u0153This time I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122m going to do it. This time I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122m going to work and … Continue reading The First Step<\/span> →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[11],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-699","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-art"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.benignchaos.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/699","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.benignchaos.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.benignchaos.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.benignchaos.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.benignchaos.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=699"}],"version-history":[{"count":7,"href":"https:\/\/www.benignchaos.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/699\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":722,"href":"https:\/\/www.benignchaos.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/699\/revisions\/722"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.benignchaos.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=699"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.benignchaos.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=699"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.benignchaos.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=699"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}