{"id":1260,"date":"2019-02-02T14:43:59","date_gmt":"2019-02-02T19:43:59","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.benignchaos.com\/?p=1260"},"modified":"2020-02-10T11:44:05","modified_gmt":"2020-02-10T16:44:05","slug":"writing-without-my-muse","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.benignchaos.com\/?p=1260","title":{"rendered":"Writing Without My Muse"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"800\" height=\"533\" src=\"https:\/\/www.benignchaos.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/02\/coffee-2306471_1920_sm.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-1262\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.benignchaos.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/02\/coffee-2306471_1920_sm.jpg 800w, https:\/\/www.benignchaos.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/02\/coffee-2306471_1920_sm-300x200.jpg 300w, https:\/\/www.benignchaos.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/02\/coffee-2306471_1920_sm-768x512.jpg 768w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 800px) 100vw, 800px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>Where is she?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>She&#8217;s beautiful. She makes my words flow without effort. My grammar becomes art; my narrative becomes poetry. I&#8217;m high on my own genius.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>But she&#8217;s missing.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>My words are flat; they are a lifeless echo sounding through a hollow concrete house. There is no poetry without the symphonic flowing of words in my head; even the sunset, as I look out the window, is a dull, melting watercolor on a gray paper sky.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Where is she?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I need her. How can I write without her? I&#8217;m stupid. I&#8217;m clumsy. My writing has the finesse and beauty of a 6th grade English paper.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Where is she?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>&#8220;Start writing,&#8221; I hear her whisper in the voice of a gossamer angel. &#8220;Start writing. When you write, you call me. I need you as much as you need me for I only live in your words.&#8221;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>My beautiful muse. I found her, sleeping silently in my pen, waiting for me.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Where is she? She&#8217;s beautiful. She makes my words flow without effort. My grammar becomes art; my narrative becomes poetry. I&#8217;m high on my own genius. But she&#8217;s missing. My words are flat; they are a lifeless echo sounding through a hollow concrete house. There is no poetry without the symphonic flowing of words in &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/www.benignchaos.com\/?p=1260\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">Writing Without My Muse<\/span> <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[11],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1260","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-art"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.benignchaos.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1260","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.benignchaos.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.benignchaos.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.benignchaos.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.benignchaos.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1260"}],"version-history":[{"count":9,"href":"https:\/\/www.benignchaos.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1260\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1293,"href":"https:\/\/www.benignchaos.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1260\/revisions\/1293"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.benignchaos.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1260"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.benignchaos.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1260"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.benignchaos.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1260"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}