{"id":1073,"date":"2017-02-20T17:14:05","date_gmt":"2017-02-20T22:14:05","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.benignchaos.com\/?p=1073"},"modified":"2019-01-22T13:57:20","modified_gmt":"2019-01-22T18:57:20","slug":"leap-of-faith","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.benignchaos.com\/?p=1073","title":{"rendered":"Leap of Faith"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"https:\/\/www.benignchaos.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/02\/leap_of_faith.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-1074\" src=\"https:\/\/www.benignchaos.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/02\/leap_of_faith.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"407\" height=\"600\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.benignchaos.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/02\/leap_of_faith.jpg 407w, https:\/\/www.benignchaos.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/02\/leap_of_faith-204x300.jpg 204w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 407px) 100vw, 407px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>Today I looked on Google Analytics to see how many people visit Benign Chaos.<\/p>\n<p>None. Not even one.<\/p>\n<p>Twice before I have built up a website audience of about 200: once with manga translation links back in the 90s when I was in college and more recently with diyplanner.com planner printables, so I know it can be done. But it still felt like a hard slap across the face and a punch to the gut (yes, it felt like both of those things at once). And I thought in despair, &#8220;How am I going to do this? I don&#8217;t exist. I spend every day working, but my talent and light are hidden in the vast noise of the internet.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>And of course, the only answer is &#8220;Have faith.&#8221; It&#8217;s always the answer given to every artist as they slam up against the inevitable question, &#8220;Why the fuck am I doing this? My voice is swallowed by the expanse of our population, by the magnitude of our existence.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Why the fuck am I doing this?<\/p>\n<p>Because it&#8217;s who I am and I actually have no choice in the matter.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Today I looked on Google Analytics to see how many people visit Benign Chaos. None. Not even one. Twice before I have built up a website audience of about 200: once with manga translation links back in the 90s when I was in college and more recently with diyplanner.com planner printables, so I know it &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/www.benignchaos.com\/?p=1073\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">Leap of Faith<\/span> <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[11],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1073","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-art"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.benignchaos.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1073","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.benignchaos.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.benignchaos.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.benignchaos.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.benignchaos.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1073"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/www.benignchaos.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1073\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1243,"href":"https:\/\/www.benignchaos.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1073\/revisions\/1243"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.benignchaos.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1073"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.benignchaos.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1073"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.benignchaos.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1073"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}